official ill

Arghh...haven't been well, i was shivering the whole night at Poole (Bart's house) and had fever... hot and cold... major headache... being crazily ill... i feel like crying, but i cant... cus if i cry, my head would hurt even more... now am back in London, drank lots of ginger with hot water, covering myself in 2 duvet... i hate the shivering part, cus each time i shivered, my bones hurt like hell... and it feels like my bones are in the freezer... and it wasnt that cold, but my body may have taken the cold when i was out walking with the artic wind blowing towards me... then thats why at night i get the shivers... its really bad, i can take a fever, but not a shiver... shiver makes my bones hurt and keeps me awake the whole night :( hope i get well soon... cus im leaving to milan in 9 days... bart's mom is so lovely, she wanted to take care of me and make sure i am healthy enuf to go home, but i didnt wanna trouble anyone, so decide to go back.. bart is very kind to drive me back, thanks bart... so yeah, please please i hope i get well soon...

realise winter may arrive early this year... wouldnt be surprise if it starts snowing by early december...and i also realise that no point fighting the fact that IT IS getting colder here... i keep trying to trick my own mind that its not, when it is... ok mother nature... u win.... i shall wear more clothes, even tho i may look like a huggie bear (thats what kuby said hahaha) huggie bear... gosh.... either huggie bear or shivering at night... i'll go for huggie bear! argh...

ps: i miss my mommy rub vicks on my chest and kuby would suap me bubur

love,

stella matilda