This is the time

at work for our real estate showcase

being a typical libra is kinda tough. im not trying to say that i believe completely in whatever my horoscope says about me. but unfortunately, everything it does says about librans are right on the spot. we always find balance in everything. we need balance. equality. if we don't have balance in our life, we feel lost.

but what's keeping me strong even when my life is unbalance is my chinese zodiac of being born in the rabbit year. all the rabbits this year will find life slightly smooth sailing then ever before. and even if there's a storm coming towards us, we will always seem to be able to cope with calmness, sincerity and empathy.

this year, i've been out and in a relationship like changing new shoes. sometimes my friends would lost track of who's my boyfriend now. when i introduce to them, they're like "Eh, i've never seen him before!" or "Ohhh... him again!" or "So where you found this one?"

i get scared of being in a relationship sometimes. the worst part, when things become too serious, i started to run away, or hide myself like an ostrich's head in a hole. not sure why. perhaps, i am at this stage of life where i just want some time to focus on my career. the few things i want to achieve as an individual, not as a couple or husband/wife. i'm still 23 and i am at the prime time of my life!

i know i can do just about anything to survive. and i am doing just fine on my own right now. but that doesn't mean i have turned lesbian!!! i still like to see hot handsome men. all the time!!! we all need to polish our eyes every now and then :)

xxx

My First Tiffany & Co

my first tiffany & co

Prior to this, I have recently bought a new phone for myself. Finally joined the Blackberry community! I got myself a Berry Torch! Before this I have been using my Nokia E71 for almost 2 years and it was just the right timing for a new phone as my Nokia was starting to loose itself.

I am not going to reveal my BBM pin because I get too many random text messages already and I really do not want to be disturb if it is not any important business related issue. I'm a very busy business woman ya know? :)


Tiffany & Co is one of a very prestigious jewelry line from America and it's in line with other elite brands like Louis Vuitton, Bvlgari and Cartier. These brand apparent will never have Sales or Promotion. About 2 weeks ago, I was admiring Tiffany & Co collections in Pavillion K.L. with Kuby. Then Kuby said, "This is every dream girl to own a piece of something from this shop. It's like "the" thing to have as a gift from someone."


Then I thought to myself. Ok, then I shall buy one for myself because I love ME :) hahahaha that was it. And so today, I finally went home with my first Tiffany & Co Gold Diamond necklace. How much? Damnnn it was expensive!!!! LOL But it is really worth it. It's no harm to reward myself once in a while. It's not like I get to experience this feeling of buying something so expensive everyday.


It feels really good to be able to buy all these things with your own hard earned money. This means for more hard work and getting serious about business because I am hoping to get a key to my house by end of this year. Yes, a full title deed with ma name on it. You shall be invited to my house warming party then ;) YES YOU!!!!

My favorite quote by myself...
"If I failed, tell me it's ok. If I succeed, tell me to do it again"

Until next time peeps! Lets work hard, be independent and then we go shopping together heheehehe

xxx

BBM

Just bought myself Blackberry Torch. Finally manage to save sone money for this :) this photo taken using ma berry torch, its good quality! 5megapixxxxx hehehe

Next, working on a Tiffany and Co gold necklace hehehehe xxx

here is where i belong

today for our company's bowling tournament

when mr.iamfrench arrive KL, i was nervous. i think i was scared too. i did not know what to expect. all i know is that, he wants me to live in france with me. just the idea of going there leaving my job and my family gives me a very hard time.

this clearly shows when the first time i changed my mind on going. the part where i cancel my trip and my visa for moving to france for a year. everything seems to be moving too fast and it makes me hard to breathe.

why in the first place i had a relationship with him? to be honest. when i look back, maybe i had an idea about escaping from my heartache i was going through. and as at today, i am standing strong without any men in my life. i know i will survive because i do not depend on men. and that part of me makes me wonder, why should i ever give up my entire life for him? i have a great job that i can do so well. i have my family that i am responsible for. and my whole life is here in malaysia.

when i see him after so long. i thought i would have the same feeling as when i had in kk with him. but sadly... i did not. i wasn't happy to see him at all. i try to brainwash myself thinking that i am happy to see him. but the truth was, i felt absolutely nothing.

harsh as it sound. the truth hurts. but i have to find whatever that makes me happy. and being here where i have my job and my family makes me happy. i always look forward to go work. ok fine, not all the time, but most of the time. i swear. i have a great boss. she is very motherly, so our team all call her mommy. and i have 2 new brothers at work. one is gay and one is slightly confused. but i sayang my team so much. my life has changed in many great areas since i join this company.

ex colleague aainaa and me after work

the funny thing is, i apply for this job 3 times before. the first time was 3 years ago, i was rejected because they wanted someone to work full time, but i was applying for part time because i was still in college. then the second time, i applied, got called for interview in kl, but i requested for kk office because i was working in novotel at that time, but then no reply from them. so the third time i applied when i decided to quit novotel, i got called for an interview again in kl, this time i attended it and was accepted for the job immediately as full time.

as at today, i have been with the company for more than 2 months and i am proud to say that it has changed my life and i am grateful how my life has turned out to be. never regret anything at all. in fact, everything that happened in my life are the things that shaped me to be who i am today.

and today, our company had a bowling competition at berjaya times square and our team won!!! that was rm1000 on the spot :) i was bowling my ass off!!! but i was sooooo proud of my team. team work rocks!

i have ended everything with mr.iamfrench. i cannot lie to myself or to him anymore. i do not feel the same way. i just cannot do this anymore. i feel happier on my own. i tried. it just won't work for many reasons. i hope he'll find his own happiness and i will find mine.

i always strongly believe that everything happen for a reason and giving up doesn't always mean that we are weak. sometimes, it means that we are strong enough to let go. xxx

Hmmm

well... i'm lost of words... be right back x