A Little Update

Where should i start?

Hurmm... *thinking* LOL

Okay, first of all. I notice my followers have gone up to 85!!!! WOW!!! =D thanks everyone for that lovely support ya!!!! KISS KISS KISS!!!!

Bah... well here's de updates, I was working with Petronas and Yamaha for recent MotoGP Showcase in KLCC for 9 days, well 8 actually because on the last day I dah tak larat nak kerje so I got Abby to replace me. Meet so many fans and friends, and weird people too. Got this org tua kan... carry 2 big trash of plastic bag filled with who knows what, and then he was checking the models out kat the showcase... and then... he was dancing to all the clubbing songs our DJ played. It was very entertaining actually! Since we all were like standing there whole day bored... and to see this old homeless man enjoying himself was not something you see everyday.

Then there was another tak betul punya org tua, i passed him a leaflet and terus he stare at my boobies and said "WAAOOOO.... leng ohhhhh!!!!" I was like "Kay....." and walked away and told the petronas models. It was funny because this old man was talking weird stuff to the promoters and stuff. Then as i was posing on one of the bike, he came to me and keep smiling and checking me out... like 4 feet in front of me. Smiling with his gigi lumbang and stuff hahahaha... it was so funny. Me and Phebs laugh our asses out! LOL

Aduiii buduh giler... it was really fun working with everyone back there, everyone so friendly! I was actually exhausted towards the afternoon because it was hot and i was sweating. But towards the evening, I felt alot better. So i kesian those people that wanna take photo with me from 2-5pm LOL i was abit moody, and i'm sorry. At least I still smile at you yea? Except those yg panggil me Pstt PStttt!!! Amoi!! Eh eh!! and those that poke me... hmmm... ask la baik baik next time.... i love to take photos with you, kan i memang suka cameraaaa =) ask nice nice ya next time hehehe thank you =)

Besides that, I've been missing home each day. I miss my friends and family back home. Yes my dogs too.... All i do now is work work work, and thinking of study study study. I passed my recent exam and I'm sooo happy. Thank you thank you.

I got offered some really cool stuff and I can't stop thanking people around me that constantly helping and guiding me to better up myself in career wise and as a person. I never think myself as significant or anything like that, I always see myself just like any ordinary girl that trying to make her dreams come true.

Everyday I remind myself how lucky am I to have whatever that God has given to me, and never I complained the things that i don't have. In fact, i worked hard for it. That is why I am always thankful that I have trustworthy and helpful people around me to help me. And I always keep myself grounded and to help others as much as I can. I know life is tough, and that is the fact.

I am a happy go lucky type of girl but that doesn't mean I don't get hurt. I am only human to be able to feel hurt or angry... and disappointed. There are few people that disappointed me, I felt I have been taken advantages on, I was not shown any sort of respect or courtesy by that particular person i trusted so much, i put my effort for it... haihhh. I guess i am gullible after all. Doesn't matter as I'm very optimistic about everything that happens in life. I'll laugh about it, sleep through it and get over it, but never will i forget about it.

So i've watch some cool movies, i love the new cartoon called something a cloudy chance for meatball, it was really funny! worth watching. Surrogates... nahh... should watch GAMER instead, both about robots but just different approach. 500 days of summer *thumbs up* Whiteout SUCKS. Law Abiding Citizen was just great until the ending as it was a suckie ending... wat a waste.... gerard butlerr was awesome! Now making time to watch Megan Fox in Jennifer's Body!!!!! ;)

P/s: Current winners for Sept/Oct contest gift will be delivered this weekend. Thanks! Stay tuned for more updates and contest =) xoxo

Something so personal...

I'm trying hard not to express this part of my feelings.... but i guess i failed to.

So here goes nothing...

Sometimes i regret the things i do in my life. I seriously do. I may seem like a happy go lucky girl, so happy, so out-going, carefree, worry-less and so lucky to somehow get what i wanted. But not everything. Just some which somehow actually unexpected...i guess that's what you called God's Gift.

I'm stupid. I'm naive. I don't have much guidance in life and my only guidance are from my mistakes in life... things that never worked out right and i learn everything from my failures. I learn what i can do and what i cannot do. I am constantly looking for what really actually makes me happy in life.

For those i have dated in my past, i still care about them. I may not have much expression to show because we must move on as i'm already gone... i made them cry, i made them sad, i broke their heart, and some after they have broke mine and i break them even harder. Those that never broke my heart, i will only blame myself for being uncertain but whatever it was, you taught me to be a better person...

Sometimes it makes me wanna cry because it's not easy... to look back, to feel what i am feeling right now. Those first moments, that first kiss... and when you smile it was something, like butterflies in my tummy... where is all that now?

Exhausted

Thick make-ups, heavy hair-dos, high heels and pretty good pay.

Recently, I've been so exhausted from the everyday shows I need to work for, I am not complaining. In fact, I enjoy it very much. I love to dress up and that's why I love to model =) Just kinda physically run down by the busy tight schedule this week as I need to go all the way to Sunway for rehearsal before a show which I model for a few days. Everything was great, the show and competition for the juniors went smoothly. The show was held at PWTC yesterday for the Beauty Expo 2009 event. The theme this year is The Bird of Paradise, so all the models were dressed up and make-up as a bird and I was an eagle =) hehe I'm a hot eagle! Muahahahaha...

Joslyn (make-up artist from Sense & Style) and me during one of our rehearsal at Sunway

I love the make-up on me, it's so original and very creative indeed

on stage for the catwalk show with the rest of the models, that's alot of birds! LOL!

Then previously on Friday, I did a show with Niko Saloon for the Malaysian Hairdressing Association event. This was really tiring because we were on stand-by the whole day. I'm repeating...the whole day. But it's very normal, all the shows never really start on time anyways =P The entire process took about 2 hours to get ready and my head gear...well or should I say my fake bee nest looking hair is heavy but I manage to hang on while it pulls my hair for support with hair pins and wires. Yes...wires... hehe but it's cool! My make up is pretty cool too and the dress is awesome. Apparently, its an oriental Goddess look. Hmm... interesting =D

me with Dylan (the hair designer)

Niko Saloon team (Ampang Waterfront outlet)

and this is for you =)

So after my show at Beauty Expo yesterday, I had a last minute call from my friend who's a designer that needs me for a show. Quickly remove my eagle make-up and a clean quick wash then put on a fresh light make-up, if I don't I'll look like a dead sick zombie! By then it was already past 5pm and my boyfriend fetch me to get something to eat because I haven't had anything the whole day. Reached at the show location at 7pm sharp and as I expected, I'm the only one always on time... LOL

this was the only picture from my camera during Jantra's fashion show because my camera died on me (forgot to charge...sigh~)

Total Randomness

Everytime I think of them, my heart just melt and feeling the urge to help. I'm talking about the less fortunates and homeless people and also animals. I have a very soft spot towards helpless creatures and everytime I have eye contact with them, my heart pushes me to do something about it. Every single time. Then my mind wonders into thin air to find a solution...

When I was young, I told my mom that one day when I'm really rich, I want to build an animal shelter in KK to protect and take care of homeless animals. I want to keep them safe and make sure they get enough food and medication (if sick) they needed. Until this very moment, these are part of the list of the things I want to achieve in my life.

Even at a very young age, I have told my mom several times that I want to adopt children when I'm old enough. But my mom said it's better to have our own when we can. Yet, I'm very firm of what I want in life, and that is to adopt a child when I'm old enough and when I'm capable to. At the moment, World Vision is an organization where I can contribute some of my income through my modeling jobs by sponsoring a child as much as RM50 monthly per child, and I'm currently sponsoring a child but unknown where and who is it yet at the moment.

This is quite a gloomy post.... I just thought life is too short to be selfish and to be nasty to other people. I'm born to be a very refined person and I hate fights, wars, misunderstandings and conflicts. I only find beauty in little good things. If you have a heart of stone, you are f'ugly to me. Everyone have a good side somewhere placed in their heart, and I'm just waiting for them to show it and somehow do the right thing. If not, then be f'ugly for the rest of your life.

Once I graduate next year, I want to do a few things in life which involves nothing of me being in the modeling line or in Malaysia. I have sort out a few plans just in case something goes wrong. I want to go Africa or Myanmar with an organization on a mission to help people. I want to go China and protect the dogs from being manslaughter as food on the menu. I'm a strong-willed person, and what I think can make me do things.

After I'm back, I want to look for something more permanent to work on. My own business. I have an idea of a business I want to do. Yes modeling agency is one of it. But I have more in mind which are part of the list I want to bring into Malaysia.

All these things take time and not to mentioned, money. I'm being very patient about it, and for me... I'm living life my own way which appears not in a straight line but it's OK, for as long as I know, Rome wasn't built in a day...

xoxo