Work vs Passion

I have to admit, to do something you don't like is definitely harder than to do the things that you like, duuhh... If you happen to be doing something you don't like, well that's just life. Life sucks, so go do something about it to make it better. But if they pay you well, then why complain right?

I know a lot of people are torn between working for money and working for passion. I got to tell you, it isn’t an easy decision... I'm sure you all who are in the working rat race know that very well...

My first job was working at a bubble tea cafe outside my house at Kingfisher Park, KK. I’m only earning RM1.50 PER HOUR!!! So i work for 5-6 hours a day during the school holidays. It was TOUGH! I SWEAR! Earning your own money isn't as easy as asking money from your parents and I don't even need to prove that for goodness sake LOL... geee mommy i want some money... next day dapat duit in the bank hahaha

At the end of the month, i get my pay from the cafe, it was only RM60.50... Hmm... of course back then RM60.50 seem really big, i was only 13... awww.... I quit after school reopened. Occasionally, my dad pays me RM5 for washing his car. I was a Car Washer (if that's what it’s called) since i was 10 years old. So you need someone to wash your car, i'm still a car washer hahaha jk =P

As i was growing up, i learnt that money don't come easy. I was not born with a silver spoon in my mouth, but however, i can never forget that my parents still provides me with a lot of things since i was born until today... those little soft Rabbit toy from Milimewa my dad bought for me during Christmas which cost RM7.90, my first Barbie doll which isn't really by the Barbie brand and it only cost RM10.90 from some kedai runcit, and they gave me money to buy my monthly Sailormoon comic book.... sniff sniff... it cost Rm5.70....

For the past four years of living in KL has definitely changed me to be a stronger person. I first worked in Concord Hotel as a waitress; yes it was a horrific job ever! Then soon, I decided to try something else. After my 2 year boyfriend DUMPED me, my self-esteem kinda turun, then my friends told me i am way better than that. So i thought.... hmmm what should i do with my life? LOL

I was browsing through the Internet and found a site, a short film casting! So i went for it! The director called, but only to found out the main role was taken up already, only left the extra talent. I really couldn't be bother about that extra role, but the director insists, and begged me... And I’m glad he did =) because of him, i have meet my 4 years boyfriend.

From the short film, i learnt about other stuff too from the website. I learnt about modeling. Yes... this is where it all started. I read about modeling and decided to give it a try. I was clueless. I don't know anything about make-up and i don't know anything about fashion! One fine day, i was walking at KLCC with my room mates and i was approached by a modeling agency. At that very moment, i thought to myself... wow is God really watching what has been happening with my crazy life down here? And here HE is, giving me a chance to make and do something useful and meaningful with me life... i get it dear God, i get it...

So the agency made an appointment to meet me and arranged for a modeling and grooming lesson which lasted for nearly 3 months. I swear i got a lot of GROOMING to do hehehehe and from there I grew to be a more confident person, and i knew how to wear make-up finally! LOL!

Since i left the agency, I have the knowledge and ability to make something happen with my life. I joined pageants, of course the first time didn't win anything, then the second pageant I was honored with 3rd placing for Miss Malaysia Earth 2007, i was shocked! Then magazine interviews, photo shoots and commercial ads and endorsements, it all seems to be happening. My life is definitely changing. I love it.

I found out that I actually enjoy what I'm doing, and it’s becoming a PASSION. All those fashion shows, photo shoots, production shoots, commercial ads, special events, interviews, meeting new groups of friends and to stay beautiful DOES NOT feel like work anymore, because I love doing what I'm doing. Of course modeling career doesn't seem to last forever, therefore i am just making the best of my youth while I’m still able to =)

And i think you should do the same....

"If you enjoy what you're doing,

don't call it a Job, call it... Passion"

Take Care and God Bless

Love ya'll!

xoxo, Stella Matilda